Lately, I’ve been so consumed with everything around me, that I started to lose myself again. It’s sad because my biggest fear is allowing life to stop me from living my dream. My anxiety and depression have been at an all-time high and honestly, I’m about ready to give up. I know me talking about giving up. Seriously life has been kicking my butt, my energy has been low, and my mind has been cluttered. Then I’m so hard on myself that I freak out when I mess up or I’m not on point. This is a habit that I’ve been trying to break for so long.
I even started to put my job before my dreams. As if this job is going to is going to fulfill my purpose in life. Questioning myself because my views have been low due to my fasting of social media. I haven’t been on social media for almost two weeks and my views haven’t been the same. So, I asked myself do you want to be view or to be read so people can relate to you? My goal for my blog is to have people read and relate. I want to help people and encourage them. I want to write about the things people are scared to confess. I’m human and sometimes I get to a place where I just don’t want to keep going. I can’t do that I must keep going, I don’t have a choice.
Why am I telling you this?
Well because I’ve been stopping myself and allowing things I can’t control to get the best of me. There are going to be times when you just must push through. Start taking things one step at a time. In those times where your energy is low, pray and ask for strength then get up and say, “I can do this.” This is something that I’m going to be using to keep me on track. I will not go back to that lost woman trying to find her way. My daughter is watching me and if I give up now, she will think it is okay to give up too.